Look everyone I will tell you everything that is truthful.

Amy is my FRIEND and my SISTER. I will not allow anyone to hurt her, while she won't let anyone hurt me. I am her FRIENd, and her LITTLE SISTER.

My problems started the day I was born. I was born with Colic. My parents could not get rid of the pain and so I felt abandoned because they did not stop the pain I felt for a whole YEAR!!!!! That was technically not their fault, but to a part of me it was their fault.

Another part in my life that didn't help was that I was constantly teased in elementary school. That was whne a few problems started. I became isolated THEN not later.

The suicide's that came out happened after Amy and I's break up, BUT Amy was NOT the cause. My rents were going on a trip without me and Carsten each time. I was not about to abandoned so I did what I thought would not let them go, sadly it worked. I was hospitalized for Suicidal ideation. In March, when Ma and Pa were going on a Cottman Transmission trip to go to a Cottman Transmission meeting thing. In October, my parents were going to the Dominican Republic. I was afraid that if they left and enjoyed where they were better then they would leave me all alone out here. It was irrational thinking but had nothing AT ALL to do with Amy. It might of looked as that, but if you see my parent's travel plans then you would see the trips planned and the lack of them going, due to their worry of the status of me.

Yes, I was hurt after Amy broke up with me. But, I was not hurt enough to be Depressed or Suicidal from a break up. Though, I wish it had lasted longer, I know it wouldn't of lasted long anyways. I prefer being a friend and sister to amy, then being in that sort of binding relationship.

It is now your choice to believe it, or continue thinking that Amy has brain washed me or whatever you think. I have stated the truth for you, and it is up to you to decided what you believe. Guarenteed Amy and I's relationship has not always been peaceful, but truthfully who has had a relationship that is always peaceful? No one's relationship with me has benn peaceful. We fight and we forgive, that is a course in life. Amy has been a big support for me right now, and it really hurts that whenever I hang out with those my age I seem to always hear the terrbile path of Amy. Amy is a caring, loving, and accepting friend. Some of you don't like her for your own reasons, but I must ask you to be civil around her. She tries to be civil around you but, if you explode on her then you can't expect her to be civil. All I ask of you is to try to be civil. I am so scared for parties cause I feel like I need to plan like two for one thing. Only those that get along can go to a certain party.

I understand that you are all stressing, your close to graduation and such. I, already graduated, know the feeling of that. But, I want you to know that you are not the only ones out there. I am stressing as I am on the verge of getting kicked out AGAIN. I am also looking for a job. You are not the only ones stressing. Graduation will be great for you. If we are not friends, then so be it. But, just so you know I know that you will all do great. I trust that you can make the right decisions in life and be strong individuals.

So then this is your choice, we can either part ways in our friendships or we can try to make things work. I personally want to work things out, you guys mean a lot to me. But, it is up to you. So if this is Goodbye then I will say now "Good bye, thank you for all the fun and laughs. Thank you for your friendship. Good bye."